Jess Megan, the model and activist known for appearing in Channel 4's 'Bring Back The Bush' in 2020, has revealed that her boyfriend died four years ago. She shared her grief journey in a series of emotional videos posted on social media.
In a post on Thursday, Jess uploaded 12 clips documenting her emotions month by month during the year of her partner Olli's death. The footage shows her progression from participating in a viral trend in January to sleeping on his grave in March, and later struggling with alcohol, smoking, and isolation.
By October, Jess was hospitalised after suffering a heart attack, and in November, she described herself as unrecognisable due to high cortisol levels. The final clip in December shows her admitting she 'couldn't do another year of this.'
In the caption, Jess wrote: 'Grief is manic and ungracious. I'd never felt so insane. For the first time ever my mind felt like a locked box, with me on the outside.' She described walking barefoot to the shop in a bathrobe, drinking wine, and smoking heavily to cope.
Jess added that grief made her 'feral' and that she didn't sleep because sleep was the only place she could see Olli, only to wake up and realise he was gone again. She urged others to know that there is a way out, but emphasised that the path is not linear.
