Molly-Mae Hague has revealed that she feels 'haunted' by her experience with her first daughter Bambi and is 'really anxious' about giving birth again as her due date approaches. In her latest YouTube video posted on Sunday, the 26-year-old influencer, who is now 35 and a half weeks pregnant with her second child, admitted she is 'in denial' about having to endure that 'period of her life' once more.
A Traumatic First Experience
Molly-Mae previously disclosed that following the birth of Bambi in January 2023, she was unable to sleep for five consecutive days and nights and could not eat due to feeling extremely 'unwell'. She later described motherhood as 'overwhelming' and was forced to stay at home with their three-week-old daughter while her partner Tommy Fury travelled to Saudi Arabia to fight his nemesis Jake Paul.
Packing the Hospital Bag
While preparing her hospital bag, Molly-Mae expressed her unease: 'I'm having this realisation that I'm actually having a baby and it's making me feel quite uneasy. And I genuinely, I've been pretending that this hasn't been happening. I can't even put it into words. I've been acting as though a baby is not coming and like life isn't going to change. And then when you're holding up these tiny newborn baby grows, you're like "I don't know how to take care of a newborn."'
She continued: 'I've done that before. Have I? I think as well because that stage of my life was quite traumatic. I know it sounds dramatic to say it. I think I've blocked a lot of it out and I've been feeling a little bit anxious the last few days because I think I'm about to have that period of life again. I'm about to go through the same period of life that I always look back on and think, whoa, that was an era that I'm very happy to forget about and I'm about to re-enter it and that is deeply terrifying.'
Anxiety and Denial
Molly-Mae admitted that she has been putting off coming to terms with the reality of having another baby. 'I think that's why I've been really putting off really coming to terms with the fact that I'm having a baby. I don't know. I guess do I need therapy? Do I need to see a therapist? I am really anxious. I feel like I've been feeling really anxious.'
She added: 'I thought by now I'd be feeling different and that I'd be feeling ... I don't want to say I'm not excited, but I just thought that I'd be having different emotions. Those emotions haven't arrived yet. I just have a worry that my feelings being the way I feel, and not because it's like second time around, it's more just because of how much trauma and scare factor I carry from the last time. I'm just stepping into this era of life again that last time literally haunts me. And that's not normal, is it?'
Different Experiences of Motherhood
Molly-Mae concluded: 'Some women absolutely love the newborn stage and others have an experience like I did where I would never really want to experience it again, and I'm about to experience it again and that is absolutely terrifying for me.'
Tommy Fury's Fight Date Controversy
The reality star recently addressed fan concerns about Tommy controversially planning a fight date for the day after she is expected to give birth. He raised eyebrows last month when he announced he would face retired strongman Eddie Hall at the AO Arena in Manchester on June 13, despite Molly's due date being June 12. However, after reports that her family were 'worried by his decision,' Molly-Mae revealed what she really thinks about it earlier this month in a Q&A video.
She said: 'A lot of questions about how do you feel about Tommy's fight and obviously the date of it. Obviously I knew that you guys were going to be concerned about that and have questions about that, but fear not. Fear not, fair maiden because we're actually feeling really, really good about it and have a really good plan in place.'
Assuring fans that she was prepared, she insisted she was pleased that Tommy had another fight planned and that he would be there when she got home. She added: 'There's actually a good amount of time between my birth, my supposed birth because basically I'm having the baby in London again. I'm not worried and I'm actually really, really happy that he's got a fight because it's been over a year since his last fight. So just having a date for something and having a focus and us having something to look forward to in the fight, I think it's actually a really, really positive thing and he will be here when I get home. He will be able to support me.'
